Transcripts from the secret testimony Jodi Arias gave last October in a closed-courtroom were finally released Tuesday, weeks after an appeals court overturned a judge's decision to bar the public and media from the courtroom while Arias was on the stand.

The transcripts revealed the convicted murderer showed remorse for killing her ex-boyfriend, Travis Alexander, during her secret testimony on Oct. 30, 2014. She also talked about being abused in her past and her passion for art and photography.

She began her testimony by acknowledging she killed Alexander and expressed regret at the pain she caused his family. She also said she did not admit she murdered Alexander until two years later, reports AZ Central.

"This is somebody that I cared about and I caused ... I caused that pain, and those were his last moments and it makes me sick and I wish ... I wish so badly that I could just do that whole day over again," Arias said, according to the KPHO.

The 34-year-old also told jurors she regretted lying to police and leaving Alexander a misleading voice mail in order to cover up her tracks.

"By the time I made the phone call, I realized that I had done something very bad," Arias said. "I couldn't remember details, but I knew ... I had a very heavy feeling, and I knew that I had done something bad. So that phone call was the beginning of when I started to try to cover my tracks."

While on the witness stand, Arias said she was physically abused by her parents and former boyfriends.

After Judge Sherry Stephens banned the media and public out of the Maricopa County Superior Court last year, a media coalition filed an appeal to re-open the public courtroom. The attorney representing the media argued conducting a trial behind closed doors and shrouded in secrecy would set a new precedent in the U.S. legal system. The Arizona Court of Appeals agreed and overruled Judge Stephens' decision to block the media and public from hearing the testimony.

It was later revealed Arias refused to testify in open court because she received death threats and feared for her life. Her lawyers also claimed media coverage of her testimony would affect her ability to think and answer questions in a manner "she truly means."

Although Arias was found guilty of first-degree murder last May in the gruesome death of her ex-boyfriend, jurors in her first trial failed to reach a unanimous decision on her sentencing. As a result, the retrial will determine whether she should be sentenced to death, life in prison or life with a chance of release after serving 25 years.

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