Khloe Kardashian deems ex-husband Lamar Odom "the love of my life" in a new Women's Health magazine cover story where she also admits part of her motivation for losing 35-pounds was to flaunt a "revenge body."

"I love Lamar to death," the 31-year-old Kardashian told the magazine of the former NBA star. "He is the love of my life. We had a fantastic marriage. Do I wish he had tried harder? Yes. Do I think that he maybe didn't have the energy to fight because he was fighting so many other things? Yeah."

As for her physical transformation, the "Keeping Up With The Kardshians" reality TV star added, "The first 45 days you're like, 'F**k this s**t.' You're exhausted, you're sore, and I actually felt fatter because I was swollen."

But before long, Kardashian found herself coming face to face with just the kind of results she needed to keep pushing forward.

"You're eventually like, 'Wow, is that an indentation on my arm?' Yeah, it's a revenge body. But it's just as much for all my critics who called me 'the fat one' for my entire existence."

Kardashian admits there have been times when she's grown envious of younger sisters Kendall and Kylie and the metabolisms they seem to have.

Still. Kardashian claimed in her recent Complex magazine cover story that she's never viewed herself as the "fat one."

"Sometimes I would beat people to the punch and say, 'Oh I'm the fat, funny one,' because that's what people would say about me," she said. "But I never really thought that. Looking back, I do believe I was unhealthy, but at the time I really thought that that was as skinny as I was going to get."