2008's Sexiest Man Alive Hugh Jackman may play as the Blackbeard in his latest movie "Pan." In real life, he may be a Peter Pan himself as the Oscar-nominated actor revealed some of his dark experiences during childhood.

In an interview for the October issue of Parade Magazine, the "Iron Man" star admitted that he is like the abandoned Peter Pan and despite his incredible roles that portray a dominant, powerful character, he felt "powerless" when, one day, his mom left him along with his other siblings.

"From the moment Mum left, I was a fearful kid who felt powerless. I was the youngest. I used to be the first one home and I was frightened to go inside. I couldn't go into the house on my own. I'd wait outside, scared, frustrated. Growing up I was scared of the dark. I was scared of heights," Jackman told Parade.

Growing up, the young Hugh felt a dark cloud of hate in his heart because of his traumatic childhood experience as an abandoned child.

"My mum left when I was 8. My anger didn't really surface until I was 12 or 13. It was triggered because my parents were going to get reconciled and didn't. All those years I'd been holding out hope that they would," Jackman told Parade via Inquisitr.

Jackman said that he turned to other activities like rugby to distract him from his resentful experiences. He said would release a Wolverine-like rage during rugby trainings and this is also the same as what he felt whenever anger fills him up.

The actor, however, said that everything has been already put in the past and religion helped him cope with his dark childhood.

He said that because he was raised from a very religious family, he finally had a chance to get over his fear-induced anger that has kept him powerless during the entirety of his childhood.

Coincidentally, Peter Pan's character is all the more fitting for Jackman's life because all of his children are adopted. Although he and his wife, Deborra Lee-Furness, had plans of adopting a child, they also wanted to have biological children. Unfortunately, this never happened for the long-time husband and wife.

The star said that whenever he makes a decision to do a film, he will always consider what his children will feel.

"When it's a movie about adoption, I want to make sure that they don't feel uncomfortable. Peter Pan is a classic tale, but now we live in a different world where we're more sensitive about adoption. I'm completely comfortable [with Pan]. If I wasn't, I wouldn't have done the film," Jackman said.

"Pan" is a spin of a the classic J.M. Barrie tale which tells the beginnings of Peter Pan and all other characters from Neverland. The movie will hit theaters on October 9th and also stars Levi Miller, Gari Hedglund and Rooney Mara.