Kendra Wilkinson has shared her innermost feelings after learning that her husband cheated on her with transsexual model Ava Sabrina London.

According to Hollywood Life, Wilkinson is revealing one of her worst moments after hearing the news. In a promo for the Dec. 5 episode of "Kendra on Top," Wilkinson said she thought about committing suicide.

"I was at a real low. I even questioned my life," Kendra said. "If it wasn't for breastfeeding Alijah [Baskett], the bond I had with her, I feel like I would have probably ended my life. I felt like I'm not even supposed to be here."

Wilkinson is seen struggling with the news in the clip.

In another clip from the same episode, Wilkinson and Baskett sit together and discuss the moment that Wilkinson found out about the affair rumors, E! News reports. Baskett explains that he handled the situation the wrong way, and that he "froze" because he thought he was going to lose everything. When Baskett first tells Wilkinson the news, Wilkinson goes to the bathroom and flushes her rings down the toilet.

The reality star said that she didn't feel she knew her husband at that moment.

"This is a f--king monster I married," she said. "This is a f--king crazy, sick f--k that I married. I mean, I just gave birth. I had post-partum blues!"

Baskett then tries to defend himself by saying that he didn't go to Wilkinson because there had been problems with their communication and he was afraid of her reaction.

For Wilkinson, this wasn't an excuse, and it only made her more upset.

"See, that offends me," she said. "I look at myself as a person you can talk to. I feel like I'm a person ..."

Baskett cuts her off and explains that she wasn't there for him when he needed her, but Wilkinson fires back and says he let her find out about his alleged affair through the media.

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